Assignment #2

I reread your assignment after I read this, and I believe I went the wrong way and ran with it. I hope it's ok though. Each stanza is a different life. Or a different part of me that I've put away, or maybe still have. Idk if that makes any sense. Hope you enjoy


My pores are open, susceptible to everything..except knowledge
Accept knowledge..let everything in Oil, Toxins, cocoa butter..but
Not able to contain my soul..my pores were
My soul had grown thin, easier to stretch out, and find people didn’t need it
I found out too late..that’s when my elasticity left..I can’t stretch like I used to
(tired of caring)

The eyes are windows to the back of my head
When I’m looking at you unguarded..my eyes then are the windows to my soul
The windows are cracked though, or trapped shut by paint
I don’t want you to get cut digging through my essence..it’s sharp sometimes
(caring about your safety, cause dealing with me isn’t)

I need to do some self help type maintenance handy woman type stuff
Does anyone know how to mend a broken heart, or fill in a pair of empty eyes
If you know someone..I have a job for you
Maybe we could try to cover up the dirty walls of my heart
Hide the secrets..make the walls feel pretty so the won’t tell
You know walls talk
And maybe if I gave them a new coat, they’d feel nice enough to not speak
To the world, I’d sometimes like to not be a part of
(Needy, and maybe hopeful)

Your eyes are mirrors reversed
When I look in them, I see your perception of me..how you see me
Wow, didn’t know you saw so little of me
This tiny reflection of me in the gloss of your eyes
Gets clouded in the mist of mine
I’m sorry…I couldn’t help it
My eyes let everything in, when my pores pour everything out
I don’t have control of that though
(Truth)

I need some life exfoliation
Maybe I could feel alive just this once
As a special treat for attempting this assignment
I think I at least deserve that
I can’t keep my soul in
And my body is missing it
Their eyes can’t see it
But then again it takes nothing to see, and everything to feel
most people are stuck in the middle
(Realization of things I once thought were real)

BlackberryBusiness

Excuse the random title..it means nothing. I thought about a friend today. Her name is Devon. One of the coolest, friendliest, genuine people I've ever met in my life. She knows every song that comes on the radio, and always has a smile on her face no matter how much pain she was ever in. I wish you could meet her, but she passed away in February 2008. Her boyfriend gave her flowers for valentines day in a graveyard. She had cancer. She helped me through my troubles when all I could do was watch her get sicker. Her attitude never changed. Always happy, I'm sure she still is. She was one of the first people I met when I got to school, and we had been tight since the first day..down to the last. I spoke to her the night she passed away. I'm not sure she knew if that was the last time we would ever speak. But I told her " I love you so much, and you'll always be my sister" and we cried. It was hard for me then, and it still is now. I wanted to share this because I wanted other people to know it's ok sometimes that things aren't under our control. Everything was out of my hands, so I could hold her hand. So I could be there for Devon, just as she was there for me. We're both stronger because of it. *Sisters for Life* I promised I would never forget her..I'm not. I'm making sure people know who she is, while I remember her.

Lauryn Hill - I Gotta Find Peace of Mind [MTV Unplugged]

My mood at the moment(After writing Who I want to be at 25)

An Assignment( A writing one)

I spoke to a new friend on facebook, and he gave me an assignment. I'm really taking my poetry serious, and trying to take it to a new level. So any opportunities to work with other writer...I'm jumping at it.
The assignment was to write who I want to be at 25(and to really be honest with myself)
I want to be myself at age 25
The Krystal I imagine myself to be. I want to be the Krystal I(I can't stress that I enough) want to be. I really and ultimately just want to be happy. I don't want a family of my own so soon, that's only 5 years from now, kinda enjoying the single thing right now. I want to be able to provide for my sisters, and parents. and look back on my short life, and say I can do more, and get up and do it. I would like to be really starting my career at that time, not a job, but a career. I once heard that if you really love your job, then you've never worked a day in your life. That's how I hope it will be for me. I want to be Krystal, the Poet,the Queen, The Sister, The Lover, The worker, The supporter at 25.. simple, but not really.
I don't want to be like people in my area, and I don't want to be a statistic anymore than the next black 20 year old. I want to be free.

Ok, time for some serious talk. This guy tried to talk to me earlier. I didn't have a problem with it..whatI did have a problem with is the fact that he already has a girl and she's his "baby mama", has pictures of the two hugged up all over facebook and everything. Not to mention his girlfriend is a friend of mine from band in high school. Granted we're not the closest friends(I've rarely seen or heard from her since I graduated) but what kind of person tries to step out on their pregnant girlfriend..thinking I'm too dumb, or just won't care to try and figure out if he's just running game..umm he clearly got the wrong one. I'm not trying to put all the business out, but this is what happens when people don't come correct. So..guys when you try to play...most girls are always two or more steps AHEAD of you..step it up, and don't play. I'm pretty sure I'll add more to this blog later on today..so umm keep swimming(I have yet to come up with a signature salutation...I might just start calling you all normies)

Queen -- Bohemian Rhapsody with lyrics

This song needs no words(well except for the lyrics). I like it, hope you guys like Queen as well.

Esperanza Spalding "She Got To You" on Jimmy Kimmel Live

Awesometisity at it's finest...I've been following her for a while now. And everytime I hear her she pretty much blows me away all over again..not to mention her fro is awesome in this video

State of Krysis

I wanted to explain the title of my blog.
A state of Krysis, is my state of mind. and I thought Krysis was an accurate description. Krysis is actually a crisis, with my own twist into it. My mind is usually this chaotic structure..full of rubble, and new things. Catastrophic thoughts sometimes. A State of Krysis, is my way into letting people know what goes on inside my head to a certain extent. What I put on my blog, are my opinions, thoughts, views, favorite music, and everything else, that might come to mind. So I guess this should have been included in my first post, but as you can see it's not. so Welcome..read the old posts to catch up, or maybe try to grasp something to hold onto, lol...the ride into my mind is NOT gonna be the easiest in any way. If you are pregnant or have a heart condition..this blog is not for you..and you must be *THIS* tall to read, lol..just kidding. Anyway..hope you guys enjoy!

The Fugees - Rumble In The Jungle (feat. Busta Rhymes, ATCQ)

Summer Learning

Good Morning everyone!
I'm home for the first time this summer. and there's nothing much going on..I'm happy to say. Church went well, and my grandmother has a demon dog. He bites, talks back, poops..everything a baby does..and he also chewed up my heels........... umm yeah, not the best moment for either of us, lol. But he's a sweetheart. I was on my Lauryn Hill/ Fugees flow earlier. Just listening to music, and thanks to a poet I was able to see a lil wayne video of a song I actually like..it was very socially conscious. I'm not surprised because I have this idea..that most rappers are extremely smart, which is why they were able to make it and others weren't. Survival of the fittest and the select few became mega rich..Hollywood's own version on Darwinism and Evolution. We have descended fro the age of Tupac..to the the era of Wocka Flocka, and Soulja Boy...yeah..it's not a promising future..but there are the few who stand out.