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I write about love and about how I want to give it wholeheartedly. I've never told anyone how I want to receive it. I want it unabashedly proud. Confident like "here hold this for a lifetime" and he's handing me his heart. Open like tell me about your day with your eyes. Wonderful...like how did I get so lucky.. Let me pinch her to make sure she's real. And I am. I want to be loved by a man with such intensity that I forget I've ever felt unloved. I want to forget the pain I felt at the thought that I would never be. To be is to be with someone who lives and loves so much that you forget that life has a dark side. -I wrote this in 2016 Me in 2018- I was looking for someone to love me the way I'm supposed to love myself.

2018

Whew, It's been a while. I cringe at some of my old posts. I thought about deleting them, but nah, it'll serve as a reminder of where I came from. I've come a long way I think. It's been about two years since I posted on here, and I want to start and actually keep it up, but we all know how that goes. I may have to set reminders in my phone. Update on me: I'm still learning how to love myself. Once I get that down, I think everything else will fall into place.