Safety in numbers

I always write about feelings. This time might not be any different. Its a freewrite for me starting at 11:36 am.
I never listen to my heart
The way it beats fast when you smile at me
I got a crush
Not really
But I think you're cute
With your baggy pants and your snapback.
That was the old me.
I liked you because on the outside we're supposed to go together like nigger boy and nigger girl
Coons and possums you know
I used to laugh at others
They didn't have whips and chains like you did
But before I knew it
You had me whipped and chained like you were my master
I was your slave to the game and no one would save me.
Stuck in the house I willingly called my home
I couldn't leave
Trapped in my own mind
Cage mindset
Framed in a free world
Maybe thats how it happens
In a world full of basketball wives and video vixens
The only people showing us how to be free are slaves
Ended at 11:45

Inconsistencied

So I see a pattern. All this time I've been trying to be consistent with my blog, but I didn't pay attention to what I was doing. I am consistently inconsistent. I have absolutely no idea what that says about me as a person but I'm not going to worry about it. I'm sure I could blame it on my being a sagittarius if I really wanted to. But I'm not. So somehow I think I'm supposed to be a writer. I don't know when it happened but people want and respect my opinion on certain things which is pretty cool. It takes some getting used to because I'm super critical of the things I do, and I don't always say things people want to hear. I feel like writing though.

Way too long

Well..Bloggers its been a while. During the time that I was gone, I graduated college, went out of the country, and went out of the state more times than I can count. I've gained friends, may have lost a few, started on my masters and I still don't have a job. I still write occasionally, and one of my friends asked me to write for his magazine. That's pretty cool, and I'm excited. I can't seem to keep my mind in one place too long. Maybe its my summer of reckoning. With myself. just a short update