Safety in numbers

I always write about feelings. This time might not be any different. Its a freewrite for me starting at 11:36 am.
I never listen to my heart
The way it beats fast when you smile at me
I got a crush
Not really
But I think you're cute
With your baggy pants and your snapback.
That was the old me.
I liked you because on the outside we're supposed to go together like nigger boy and nigger girl
Coons and possums you know
I used to laugh at others
They didn't have whips and chains like you did
But before I knew it
You had me whipped and chained like you were my master
I was your slave to the game and no one would save me.
Stuck in the house I willingly called my home
I couldn't leave
Trapped in my own mind
Cage mindset
Framed in a free world
Maybe thats how it happens
In a world full of basketball wives and video vixens
The only people showing us how to be free are slaves
Ended at 11:45